Genuine Humility

Genuine Humility

In OneCORE, our 8th principle is:

“Genuine humility creates personal success.”

In the past, I explained it as just one’s realization that one’s success is not meant to be compared to others. And so to be genuinely humble is to focus on one’s personal process and not go bragging to others about it.

The meaning of that principle was not that clear to me back then. I always felt confused about how to explain it and after many attempts to do so, there was this nagging thought that my explanation was not enough. For you can never fully teach what you have not fully learned. Genuine humility sounded good to me but I was yet to fully understand what genuine humility really is.

To be genuinely humble is to be completely open: all forgiving, all loving, all accepting, no judgement, no raging desire to be in control. I woke up one day to the realization that I was not being affected so much and that I was being more understanding. At first, I felt uncomfortable about it, thinking that this was me being anti-social, I have to be more involved in what is happening, maybe I should rant out my frustrations as well…but at the same time, there was this soft, fluffy feeling of being at peace. Even if my friends are going on about their frustrations, I can laugh to myself and not be worried, knowing that they will find their way through them even without my unsolicited advice. Of course I will be there when they need me but I have somehow loosened my need to give my reactions.

To be genuinely humble is to be open to the possibility of not knowing. I have met a lot of people craving for answers to big questions — questions that I once have asked as well and have found answers to. Yet I choose to breathe out that desire to blab about my answer and allow others to find their own answers. As a workshop facilitator, I do need to share my answers as well but I also leave my students with a stream of things to ponder on for, as one of my favorite teachers said, the answer may be different tomorrow. Thinking about it, it really is hard to write things down for by tomorrow, these thoughts can just change altogether!

Yet we still share what we have for to be genuinely humble is to not be selfish of what is given to us as well. For all grace is meant to be shared and it is with humility that we allow ourselves to be vessels by which He can touch lives. Doing God’s work is an act of genuine humility in itself for to let your life be in control of One who is Greater than you…is definitely frustrating. All the waiting, all the “in God’s time”…

But then, only with genuine humility will we find that sense of inner peace…

I am still in the process of learning to be genuinely humble. And I have yet to discover that lasting inner peace. I am on my way and I am grateful…

Forgiveness and Compassion

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I remember a story shared by our workshop facilitator about someone who experienced having his entire family killed in front of him. He was left alive and forced to be the interpreter for them who killed. It was so easy for him to be hateful and to be vengeful but he knew how hate can be so destructive. So he chose to love and be compassionate…to look for the human in the eyes even of those who bring suffering to others.

Hate creates more hate. It was hate that brought the problems in the first place. Now it is hate that is addressing the problems now. And then it is again with hate that we respond to the hatred that we see. No wonder the cycle never ends.

So, are we willing to love? Compassion for the other does not just need to happen with our police being compassionate with those involved in drugs. We cannot be selective with our compassion. Compassion has to start with us and how we address ourselves when we need compassion most. And then it is when people come along to bring out the hatred lurking inside ourselves and we are asked to heal ourselves by replacing that hatred with love. Only when we are successful with this can we see things change…not exactly in the entire world but at least where we are and where we have been.

To love a person and not condemn them by their actions. There is no one to blame in the greater picture, yet there’s so many who need to love and be loved.

Faithfulness 

My life so far has led me on this path of becoming an art therapist. Over the last week, I was in a workshop series learning about anthroposophic art therapy (color therapy), organ archetypes, fairytales, inner development and life. I never knew art therapy had distinctions and was therefore surprised to know it is so. As the group would say, only when you’re ready.

This therapy in particular focused on your inner development. Much like coaching, there’s a process of where are you stuck and how can we get you unstuck. The focus is also on just creating movement; not on reaching the final goal by the end of the sessions but just on getting you moving once again. And so you create a piece of art true to your present self and then you recreate it to the best of your ability to mirror a healthier human person. 

And therefore the requirement is to know what a healthy human being looks like in colors before you even try looking at if others are healthy. How do you learn this? You’ll have to start with yourself. 

Of course my reaction was “Oh, wow.” It was consoling therefore when I got home and started researching about anthroposophic art therapy courses and found out that age requirement is 28. Well that means I have roughly 3 years to get myself ready. Hmm…that’s so much time to just be lazy…
Yeah I’m really lazy…but then again, there is so much I have to learn first before I start studying art therapy. Faithfulness to my calling is very much needed throughout this process. There is work to be done. I guess for this one, I’ll remember the fairytale about Jorinda and Joringel. Joringel travelled far but kept circling around the castle that held that which he longed for…maybe to remind himself to stay faithful to his higher ideals even as he needs to pass the time away and take care of sheep.

The next question then is…so where’s my sheep? 🐑

Introduction to Art Therapy

I attended an Introduction to Art Therapy talk last night. Although feeling a bit tired coming from work and due to lack of sleep, I managed to stay awake, listen and take note of what the speaker was saying. Yay!

The speaker was Iris Sullivan, an art therapist who studied under Lianne Collot. I remember her saying how she was in her early 20’s when she decided to pursue art therapy and only got to really living out that dream 14 years later. Still lots of time for me — yay again!

She taught us quite a lot of things and having very little background on the work of Steiner and on Waldorf education, it was hard to grasp everything she’s saying. At this moment, I’m still trying to make sense of what I learned from last night, re-writing my notes and talking to my sister and boyfriend about it. It’s just the first night anyway and the actual experience starts tomorrow. Hopefully, things will start getting clearer once we get deeper into the practice.

Some insights about today:

I liked the explanation about the meaning of the colors blue and red. Blue is for reflection, red is for taking action. Blue is for encapsulating ideas, red is for limitless discovering. Blue is for thinking, red is for moving, willing. 

The way I understood it is what we want is to strike the balance between the two colors. To calm the restlessness of red, to wake up the sleepiness of blue. To spend some time moving and acting, then spend time reflecting and evaluating. 

I do not know how to end this post since I’m really just writing down my scattered thoughts so that I accomplish my little goal of posting something each day. Time to sleep!

Restless Inside

I am feeling restless inside

I just thought maybe it will be good to write

About this afternoon’s realization

That it is okay to have this hollow sensation

It really is nothing but a small unknown

Amidst my daily happiness and satisfaction 

This restlessness will at the right time go away

So I’m free to let it be and just enjoy my day

Blurred Signs

The process of finding
What your heart’s desiring
Is a walk to the end
Of a road with a bend

The path that you’ve plodded
Seemed alright when you started
With another curve drawing near
You feel a budding sense of fear

You look around in an effort to find
Anything, just anything, to ease your mind
The darkness around you starts to unfold
An eerie silence wraps you with cold

Your feelings overwhelming
But steps you keep taking
Until between the gaps there appear
Something familiar but still so unclear